This is what I crave… I need this and in glad to have u just attack me a little more lol :)
Workin like a boss :)
Lookin up …. Literally lol I’m hoping for the higher things
going out gonna get my eye brows done and my hair did gonna make myself look less rachet score for me
So close yet so far …
"…how can someone be so close yet so far away… cuddle me in your arms as i feel you in my spirit kiss me sweetly and i may never let you go…"
It seems that I’m slowly falling into the charms of this person and I’m falling and falling and at times hitting the bumps of uncertainty. Is it still hard for me to believe that I can feel this way again after so long of being dormant of these emotions or am I just nervous that there are others that want him like I do . Now in a way I understand how u feel when the person ur interested in lives so far away and it’s hard to go see them but u know the females that surround him may not have the same respect u do. I never in a million years thought that in one night I could become the panda with extreme morales and standards to being the panda that gets caught up in amazin moments, it’s not a matter of regret cause I don’t think I could ever regret that night but it might be more of making sure where I stood amongst the others in line before doing it….
tumblr. used to be my number one and i think ive failed you in some way… anyway its been long long ago sense blue has left and the satisfaction is amazing. my room is 50% back to normal and school is … interesting to say the least it feels like and is class computer/studying, class, then home its really nice cause if I’m not working i have the whole day to myself like a boss. but things in the normal have been stressful, like financial things and wants and needs needing to be separated a lot more then i though they would but I’m looking forward to Scarowinds which is my other seasonal job which i will be bringing in more money which will being relief to a lot of things. I hope that i do well in school and get my grades to the level so i can transfer and get decent scholarships so i can get out of this place, it seems like everyone is moving forward and yes I’m going to school but nothing has changed, i feel like this point in my life i should be experiencing a life change u know moving into a dorm buying new dorm stuff living on campus and experiencing campus life, roommates, late nights out with the new people you’ve met… but i haven’t gotten there yet. the positives i see them but i selfishly want more and in a way feel bad for it. i understand some individuals would kill to have at least a little of what i have in the case of going to school and still living at home, and have a more or less functioning car but again i feel in a way still stuck in my old life when at this point i want something new.
Totaly the truth:)